Awoke from slumber - watch me swim!

It has been 108 days since I left Singapore to pursue the American dream. One that took a long time to materialise. But every day I reminded myself how much it took for me to be here. Persuading my parents. Convincing my uncle. Surviving the three rounds of interviews PLUS all the ups and downs that accompanies it. Filling up tons and tons of forms. Attending briefing after briefing. And then here I am. Now what? Have you ever dreamt of doing something so bad that you will go all odds to get there. But when you finally did get there, you don't feel that great afterall. And then you pursue another dream... Do people pursue their dream to enjoy the temporary moments of ecstasy or are they after the process of getting there. Both? Always the safer answer (grins)

But today I am reminded to make everyday count. Ironically from watching a free chickflick "Shopgirl". (Talk about making everyday count?!) How many of us really put in 110% in whatever we do? Let's not even talk about the small things. I am talking about our dreams, people. How many people dare say they throw in everything that they have to achieve their seemingly unachievable dreams?

Sadly I am not one of them. But to me this is no surprise. Somehow I feel that I need to feel safe. I need to have a backup planJUST IN CASE I cannot achieve my dream. And so I held back. I put a little less effort in pursuing the dream. Giving way to adversity and letting excuses take control. And when that happen, nobody wins. The dream loses its meaning and the pursuer loses its purpose. He then take the easy way out and blames it on the realities of life. Sounds familiar right.

I am glad I caught the chickflick. Another opportunity presents itself - an act of courage. Here's my reality: I am halfway out from shore. Do I save some energy to swim back or do I go all out and swim till I reach the horizon? I chose the latter. Watch me swim.